I Can't Do This!

This morning as I was driving a teary Christen to school, I was thinking, "I can't do this anymore...I DON'T WANT to do this anymore." My prayer was, "Jesus, come back soon!" I told Brian the night before school started that I would like for Him to come back just before I had to get Christen up so I didn't have to fight the teary battle with her.

I'm tired. I'm worn out emotionally. I'm tired of wondering. I just want answers (re: Cali and my dad). I just want it to be over.

And then I looked up as I was pulling away, after my teary Christen got out of the car and I saw a smiling Teresa Ramey in my rear view mirror and I was reminded of God's goodness. I was reminded that God heals. I was reminded that it may not and probably won't be in my time but in His time. I was reminded that the road may not be easy but in the end it will draw me closer to Him.

I was reminded that, I CAN do this.

I love this song...it says it all:

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,
where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there's good who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning
yeah, yeah,
before the morning,
yeah, yeah

Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
memory, memory, yeah

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

com'n, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the hurt before the healing
the pain you've been feeling,
just the dark before the morning
before the morning, yeah, yeah
before the morning