Is this real?

I find myself asking the question, "is this real" every morning when I wake up? Is this life that I am living in right now really mine or is it just a dream?

And then I realize it's real. It's really happening.

It's funny how you can plan your life but when you look back, what you had in mind may not be what God had in mind for you.

Let's look back one year ago...
Brian was working at Cat.
We were living in Greenacres.
I still had Christen at home with me.
My dad had none of the problems he's having now.
Cali was fine.

If you asked me last year what from that list would change in a year's time, I might have said that we would no longer be living in Greenacres just because our house was for sale and I knew Christen would be in Kindergarten so obviously that would change but the job change, the lifestyle change...if you would have told me I was going to live in the "country" and love it, I would have said you were crazy! I never really saw the health changes in my dad and Cali's scoliosis on the radar!

You just never know. It all happened in the blink of an eye. But such is life, Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. James 4:14

So with that in mind, I'm trying to not dwell on the tomorrows. I wake up and realize that yes, this is real and it's going to be okay.